Believe it or not, I do understand. I won't get into it here, though.
But here's the deal, Superfan... I've been following Bengal athletics for a long time, but haven't really participated until Jenna came to ISU. Only then did I know that there was this guy whose passion is Bengal athletics and he brings 100% each and every game. S-fan, you may not get the entire crowd to follow your cheers, etc., but whether you want to admit it or not, you are still a part of the event. If that's okay with you, then continue doing what you are doing.
I once knew of a guy that billed himself as the world's greatest cheerleader. He attended Portland Trailblazer games, Seattle Seahawk games. Heck, he even attended Boise Hawks (a minor league baseball team currently affiliated with the Atlanta Braves) and Boise State games. He worked in conjunction with the cheerleaders. You could always tell where he was by the noise that he made. But, he didn't go at it alone. Instead, he played to the crowd, not to the game and he did so with positive cheers. He'd go to one section of the stadium and get the crowd to respond to another section's cheer. For example, just before the game he'd tell the group directly behind the home team's bench and tell them when they hear the section directly across from them yell "Idaho!", the group behind the bench should yell "State!" But he made it so he had a solid, loud following when he cheered. He had different cheers associated with different groups. Thus, it wasn't just him. He even participated with the team's actual cheerleaders by encouraging the fans in the section that he happened to standing at the time the cheerleaders' cheer was taking place. He played to the crowd and won the crowd.
Will ISU let you compete with the ISU cheer squad? I can't answer that. But I will tell you that you need to do what your heart tells you to do. If your blood is orange and black, then don't hang it up. Just realize that not everyone is blessed with the enthusiasm that you have.
But here's the deal, Superfan... I've been following Bengal athletics for a long time, but haven't really participated until Jenna came to ISU. Only then did I know that there was this guy whose passion is Bengal athletics and he brings 100% each and every game. S-fan, you may not get the entire crowd to follow your cheers, etc., but whether you want to admit it or not, you are still a part of the event. If that's okay with you, then continue doing what you are doing.
I once knew of a guy that billed himself as the world's greatest cheerleader. He attended Portland Trailblazer games, Seattle Seahawk games. Heck, he even attended Boise Hawks (a minor league baseball team currently affiliated with the Atlanta Braves) and Boise State games. He worked in conjunction with the cheerleaders. You could always tell where he was by the noise that he made. But, he didn't go at it alone. Instead, he played to the crowd, not to the game and he did so with positive cheers. He'd go to one section of the stadium and get the crowd to respond to another section's cheer. For example, just before the game he'd tell the group directly behind the home team's bench and tell them when they hear the section directly across from them yell "Idaho!", the group behind the bench should yell "State!" But he made it so he had a solid, loud following when he cheered. He had different cheers associated with different groups. Thus, it wasn't just him. He even participated with the team's actual cheerleaders by encouraging the fans in the section that he happened to standing at the time the cheerleaders' cheer was taking place. He played to the crowd and won the crowd.
Will ISU let you compete with the ISU cheer squad? I can't answer that. But I will tell you that you need to do what your heart tells you to do. If your blood is orange and black, then don't hang it up. Just realize that not everyone is blessed with the enthusiasm that you have.